I have been losing people and finding peace. Honestly, that sounds like a fair trade to me.
After a while, people get tired of not receiving the same energy they give! People really be dead to me, I don’t want no apologies, no explanation, nothing. I just want to be left alone. I’ve mastered being alone, trust me, when I say I don’t need nobody. I just don’t play about me anymore. I’m working on me right now, I don’t need nobody around me who going to trigger my old ways. I’m outgrowing people daily, I’m just not in the mood anymore.
Everyone talks about cutting people off but nobody really talks about the grief that comes with having to stand firm on that decision knowing it’s not what you wanted but was necessary for your well-being. I no longer see the good in people, I see the truth. I gotta stop being scared to lose people who do nothing for me. Once I began standing up for myself, I only lost favour from those people who didn’t want me to have boundaries and needed to have power over me so they could feel good about themselves. Losing those people doesn’t feel like a loss at all.
If your intentions were pure from the jump, you shouldn’t sweat the outcome of any situation. People don’t realize that coming across someone with pure intentions and no hidden agendas is alignment and a God-send, they fuck that up, that’s on them and not you.
A therapist would say being a loner is a trauma response. I am just used to people I love not showing up for me. The only one who could depend on me is ME! So I naturally feel safe when I am alone. I have to remove that “I have to get them back’ mindset. Karma comes in so many different ways and God will handle them, I don’t have to do anything.
You can’t avoid heavy emotions, you can’t avoid seasons of darkness, and you have to wrestle with your demons. We all have to walk through fire. But when you choose to keep going, step by step, you will transform into the person capable of fulfilling your divine purpose. I don’t even think about how or whether karma or God will deal out vengeance on your behalf, just face your front. They’re even the most prosperous. If you pay attention to people who’ve wronged me, you’d actually go mad because they FLOURISH.
Biggest LEO turnoff:
When people over-promise and then under-deliver because you could have just shut the fuck up. A little communication goes a long way. If you’re busy, say it. If you’re upset, express it. If you’re running late, let people know. If you don’t want to do something, be straightforward. If you are unsure, ask. It’s so simple but so important.
I don’t worry about what people say behind my back, they are the people who are finding faults in my life instead of fixing their own. They can’t support you out loud cause they’ve told someone else something differently. Sometimes it’s better to just let things be. Let people go.
Don’t fight for closure, don’t ask for explanations. Don’t chase answers and don’t expect people to understand where you’re coming from. I’m not into proving points, you know wassup with me.
Never disrespect someone with a good heart who made sure you were good when no one else was there. No matter how good my heart is, eventually, I have to start treating people how they treat me. I have to remove the “I want you to like me” sticker from my face and place it on the mirror, where it belongs.
It hurts because they meant something to me, it hurts because I saw a future with them. You were vulnerable with them because you spent so much of your time and energy on them, of course, that’s going to hurt. So it’s okay for it to hurt. Let it. Sit with the pain. However, this should never be your normal. I should never be okay with being treated badly. I should never be okay with being betrayed. I should never be okay with having someone you trusted so much turn around and treat you as if you never meant anything to them. I should never be okay with that. You don’t need to be the backbone for everyone anymore. You can put it down. No more overextending yourself and taking on roles that don’t belong to me. Allow people to find their way. It’s for their highest good.
Things are gonna get better but it won’t be because of how long I sat around waiting for an act of divine intervention. Things are gonna get better because I put my faith into action. Things are gonna get better because I made the most of the hand that was dealt. Things are gonna get better because I decided that my goals are more important than any distraction. Things are going to get better because even though I fell down, I didn’t stay down. Things are gonna get better because I refused to compromise in my pursuit of the life that I deserve.
Until men and women start having honest about who they truly are, what demons they battle with, where they lack and what they truly want, love will continue to be temporary. As a man, I see why most women aren’t worth dating but also as a man, I can entirely see why women aren’t impressed or want to date men either. Both sides move wotless on a daily. Men are not providers anymore. They make podcasts trying to intellectualize why they shouldn’t be providers but want the benefits of providers. Women want all the benefits of being a housewife whilst fighting to maintain their masculinity via independence, in exchange for sex and showing off their bodies online while seeking attention like that shit is normal behaviour. Both genders still cut up about their exes who have multiple people’s DNA on their bodies. Why? Get over that! So much trauma between the two genders, no more men out there and not enough ladies.
I realize the more Godly, my wife became the less she was on social media, now she has no media, she’s just a dedicated wife and mother and I honestly will do anything for her.
An expression that refers to moving on and making changes in life. The expression is quite literal: You’d use it to refer to changing things in your life and replacing some old things with newer ones.
I moved on, cheated on my fears, broke up with my doubts, got engaged to my faith and now I am marrying my dreams.
Until we meet again.
(If we ever do. It’s been real)
Peace
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